Single Boat at Sea

I have a husband, mother and sister, they are my immediate family. Prior to March I also had a father. My mother and father each have about 7-8 siblings, so you can imagine all the aunts, uncles, cousins and second cousins I have. However, after my father's passing there is a huge gap in our family and an extreme feeling of loneliness. I've never experienced the feeling of loneliness until now. I know I'm not alone and I have the love and support of my family and friends but the feeling of a single boat out at sea is very real sometimes.