Showing posts with label death. Show all posts
Showing posts with label death. Show all posts

Tuesday, February 4, 2020

Our City is Mourning







I’ve been writing this post for about a week. I believe everyone has now moved on to the super bowl excitement and more importantly the half time show! But in all reality, I am still in a state of shock and sadness.  A celebrity death is always sad but distant to my personal feelings or life. However, the death of Kobe Bryant seemed a lot more personal. I was born and raised in Los Angeles, so Kobe Bryant was a local celebrity to me. He was a celebrity that brought our city so much pride. While I’ve never met Kobe, I saw him play in all his glory for many years. I am a Lakers fan. I am a Kobe fan. So, when the news of his death broke, I was in disbelief. I was heartbroken. How could this be? How is this fair? How is this possible? These are just some of the thoughts that were running through my mind while I tried to hold back the tears.

As the days went by, I struggled more and more to keep in the tears. I was in a constant state of having knot in my throat with the tears ready to come pouring down at any point. I felt a little silly and maybe even a little embarrassed to cry over a celebrity death. It was someone that I did not personally know, why should I feel so bad? As the week went on, I eventually had to let it out and I did. I was driving home from work listening to the radio and of course all the stations were talking about him and I finally let it all out. I cried and cried, and you know what? It felt good. Sometimes a good cry is just what you need.

I realized why his death affected me so much. I realized he was genuine hard worker at his craft, he was a dedicated father, he was a loving husband and he was a true role model. He had an entire chapter of his life left. We were robbed from a chapter of his life we will never know. We will never what lengths he would have reached.  Regardless of his celebrity status he was human, and he did so much for Los Angeles and for that I don’t feel any regrets for feeling the way I do.

Our city is heartbroken and will never forget the legacy he leaves behind. This past Saturday we went to pay our respects at the Staples Center, the house that Kobe built. These photographs are from our visit. 

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

...boom my whole life came crashing down


One of the last post I made back in February I mentioned I was super busy and wasn't going to have much time for this blog for a while and I really was busy. My life was going 100 mph and then boom my whole life came crashing down... my dad died. It will be 3 months this June and I still cry for him and I don't know if that will ever stop. This has been the hardest, saddest and worse thing that has ever happened in my life. I'm still dealing with accepting that this is real life and that I will live the rest of my life without seeing him. I haven't felt like speaking since my dad passed but I thought I would provide an explanation of my absence. I want to continue with this site and use it as a distraction.

I feel like I'm in a storm and eventually the sun will come out,  so when I can I will share some snippets of  sunshine.